Open Mouth, Insert Foot

This little story goes quite well with my previous post.

So, I’m sitting at my desk at work today when a coworker came by. She actually works across the street at another business owned by our company. This is how that conversation went:

Her: Hey. How are you doing? Aww…look at your chubby face!!

Me: WTF??

Seriously. Who does that?

Overwhelmed

I feel completely overwhelmed by this whole weight loss thing. I looked at myself in the mirror this morning after putting on my sweats, and I was depressed to see how bad I now look in my t-shirt.

But, did that give me more motivation to work out this morning? Nope. I hate working out. Hate, hate, hate it. I don’t think I’ve ever been more miserable than I am when I’m exercising.

And, I’ve never lost weight from working out. Joe doesn’t believe me, which is probably because he can lose weight from working out, but for some reason, I can’t. So, basically, it’s a huge waste of time for me.

Which means, I have no idea where to go from here. I don’t know what else to do to lose the 50 pounds I’ve gained. I’m miserable being this fat, yet I don’t really have the motivation to do anything about it.

Working on the Weight

I think the working out I’ve been doing has been starting to work. I’ve also been watching what I eat even more closely (though I really don’t eat badly to begin with), and while I haven’t replaced the battery in my scale at home, the last time I went to my rheumatologist I was down somewhere in the 4-5 pound range, which definitely made me feel good.

I haven’t worked out in about a week or so, though. Taking care of Joe and Lucy was so tiring, I just didn’t have the energy! Plus, I didn’t really have the time. I was a busy woman!

My plan is to start back with it now. I just hate that it’s so slow to get the weight off. I’m so tempted to add diet pills to my regime to speed it up a bit. I guess I’ll just have to be patient.

Weight Watchers: Week 7

Result: -1.4
Total: -6.2

Wow, it’s sure been a while since I posted an update. I could say it was because I’ve had a few fluctuations, but it’s mainly because I just forgot.

Today, though, I’m pretty proud of myself. A 1.4 pound loss *after* Thanksgiving. I was nervous during the whole holiday weekend, even though I still counted my points. I knew I hadn’t gone over my allotted weekly points, but I’ve had weeks before when I dipped into my weekly points and ended up gaining weight at my weigh-in. Plus, it’s my tom, so I was sure that would make it more likely that I would gain.

So now I am 3.8 pounds away from 10 pounds. That’s unbelieveable to me. I’ve started to see a difference in how I look, even though that varies from outfit to outfit. And, I’m feeling good about myself now. And that’s the whole reason I’m doing this.

Weekly Winners — 11/09/08-11/15/08


Spending a few hours together — my grandmother has been at a nursing home for the last two weeks for rehab because she broke her hip during a fall. She came home for a few hours on Saturday, and is expected back for good just before Thanksgiving. My grandpa has really missed her.

bomma and boppa

Taste-tests — Callie had to make sure the cake I made for my dad’s birthday and my sandwich weren’t poisoned.

cake

sandwich

“What? This is the *trash*??”
callie and diz

“Can I be a Weekly Winner too?”
aj

It’s amazing how far gas prices have dropped.
gas prices

One paper clip for each pound lost.
weight watchers chain

Check out more Weekly Winners over at Lotus’ blog.

Five Pounds

I hit my 5-pound loss at my weigh-in today with a total loss now of 5.4 pounds! I was pretty proud of myself. I had a feeling I had lost this week because I’m really starting to notice it in my stomach, but last week’s gain had me a bit nervous. I knew that was from my tom, but it still is always in the back of my mind.

I’ve been doing really well with the program. There were a couple of days last week that I didn’t even get all my points in. One day I was about 10 points short, but I still managed to lose. I just haven’t been too hungry most of the time. My one weakness is the Weight Watchers candy. I bought a back of the 1-point Double Chocolate Mousse candies covered in dark chocolate, and I am now addicted. I could probably eat my entire day’s worth of points in those. They are fabulous.

I am now 11 pounds from losing 10 percent of my starting weight. When I reach that point I also will be at the top end of my healthy weight range. I’m hoping to be there by the end of January. My plan is to reach my goal by the time we do IVF at the end of March, and I really think that’s doable.