feeling alone

joe left just before 5 a.m. today to head to the atlanta airport for his flight to philadelphia. he and wendy and leah, the two other university relations specialists at georgia state university, are up there until friday at a public relations convention. I’m sure they’ll learn all sorts of fun job-related things and have fun just getting to know each other better, but i’m really missing him. a lot. i didn’t think i’d miss him much more than usual since we never see each other on wednesdays and thursdays, but then i remembered that we email each other all day. so i’m missing that. and i’m missing being able to call him and talk.

we had a good night last night though. he didn’t get home until close to 9 p.m. because of a bad wreck on the interstate, and when he called he said all he wanted to do was to get home and see me. he held me for a while when he got in, and then we went out to get take-out for dinner and watch reno 911. he got me hooked on that show when we were just friends.

so now i’m counting down until friday. it’s going to be a great weekend. we have lots of stuff planned with both of our families for father’s day, which will be fun, but i just can’t wait to see joe.

never a dull moment

joe and i were relaxing on the couch watching sideways last night. i was leaning against him and he had his arms around me. i looked at him, and we started kissing. then CRAAAAAAAAAAACK. he smacked his forehead into my nose. i don’t think i’ve ever heard a crack that loud in my life. my entire nose, from the sides to the bridge, hurt. then my head began to hurt. joe thought he fractured it. he kept checking it for bruising and put a bag of frozen green beans on it. then he laughed at how absured i looked as i held the bag of green beans wrapped in a dish towel against my nose as i tried to watch the movie.

ah, never a dull moment with us.

why i almost broke up with joe

i woke up this morning and rolled over to tell joe about a dream i had just had.

“i just dreamt that we got engaged and…”

joe looks at me with compassionate eyes as he interrupts. “why do you keep having these nightmares?!”

“you think being engaged to me is a nightmare?!”

“i love you baby.”

“yeah, i used to love you.”

picking our song

joe and i are in the process of choosing our song. last weekend we chose “just like heaven” by the cure, but it’s more fast-paced, and i want a slower song that we can dance to (you know, for something like a wedding at some point in the future:) ) as well. i want “drowning” by the backstreet boys. before everyone starts laughing at me (what else is new) i think the lyrics are pretty romantic (or it could be just me).

don’t pretend you’re sorry
i know you’re not
you know you got the power
to make me weak inside
girl you leave me breathless
but it’s okay ’cause
you are my survival
now hear me say
i can’t imagine life
without your love
even forever don’t seem
like long enough

’cause everytime I breathe
i take you in
and my heart beats again
baby I can’t help it
you keep me
drowning in your love
everytime I try to rise above
i’m swept away by love
baby I can’t help it
you keep me
drowning in your love

maybe I’m a drifter
maybe not
’cause I have known the safety
of floating freely
in your arms
i don’t need another lifeline
it’s not for me
’cause only you can save me
oh can’t you see
i can’t imagine life
without your love
and even forever don’t seem
like long enough

’cause everytime I breathe
i take you in
and my heart beats again
baby I can’t help it
you keep me
drowning in your love
everytime I try to rise above
i’m swept away by love
baby I can’t help it
you keep me
drowning in your love

go on and pull me under
cover me with dreams, yeah
love me mouth to mouth now
you know I can’t resist
’cause you’re the air
that I breathe

’cause everytime I breathe
i take you in
and my heart beats again
baby I can’t help it
you keep me
drowning in your love
everytime I try to rise above
i’m swept away by love
and baby I can’t help it
you keep me
drowning your love

baby I can’t help it
keep me drowning
in your love
i keep drowning
in your love
baby I can’t help it
can’t help it no, no

’cause everytime I breathe
i take you in
and my heart beats again
baby I can’t help it
you keep me
drowning in your love
everytime I try to rise above
i’m swept away by love
baby I can’t help it
you keep me
drowning in your love

joe says it’s not his cup of tea. what can i say. maybe i’m a dork, but i’ve just always loved this song. guess it’s back to the drawing board. 🙁

why i love my boyfriend, reason no. 9745683

he sat through a lifetime movie AND the two-hour broadcast of rob and amber’s wedding because i wanted to watch them. he didn’t complain, and he didn’t fall asleep. i love you baby.

anniversary, part 1

joe and i had the most fabulous anniversary. i will write all about our date once i get the pictures developed on monday, but i had to share this. for my present he got me a silver heart-shaped necklace with diamonds around the sides. this picture, which i couldn’t get a clear shot of for the life of me, doesn’t do it justice. it’s absolutely gorgeous, and i love it!