let the countdown begin

i’m so excited!!

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daddy’s little girl

my dad and i always have had a close relationship. when we lived in maryland we had a weekend house in the woods of virginia. every morning as a little girl when we’d spend the weekend there i’d get up very early with my dad, while my baby brothers and mom still slept, and we’d sit on the couch and he’d read to me. those are the times that he and i both remember and still talk about. daddy-daughter time.

i’ve always been my daddy’s little girl, and i know i always will be. even though i’m an adult now, i still cherish the time he and i can spend together. i don’t see him very often now, since i live in georgia, so sometimes he and i will have lunch when i go to chattanooga for my weekly staff meeting. even though we only spend an hour together, it’s nice. and now i think about the day when he will walk me down the aisle at my wedding. his youngest daughter. yet another, special moment i can share with him.

i always wanted to be like my dad. as a child i wanted to be a lawyer just like him. now i hope to marry someone just like him. i think i’ve found that person in joe. joe and his dad have a relationship that i admire as well. they play catch together. they go to the movies and eat cups of jalapeno peppers together. they roast the turkey for thanksgiving together. it’s interesting how different and yet how similar a dad’s relationship with a daughter and a son are.

now, as i look at joe, i see what an amazing father he is going to be. i see the soft look in his eyes as he sees a baby and admires how sweet and innocent it is. i can picture him playing catch with our son, taking him to little league and cheering him on. i can see him teaching our daughter how to drive and, as he said last night, waiting on the front porch with a shotgun for her to return when we let her start dating when she’s, oh, say, 32.

i know people who haven’t been lucky enough to have a great dad. i’m glad i did. i love you dad.

feeling alone

joe left just before 5 a.m. today to head to the atlanta airport for his flight to philadelphia. he and wendy and leah, the two other university relations specialists at georgia state university, are up there until friday at a public relations convention. I’m sure they’ll learn all sorts of fun job-related things and have fun just getting to know each other better, but i’m really missing him. a lot. i didn’t think i’d miss him much more than usual since we never see each other on wednesdays and thursdays, but then i remembered that we email each other all day. so i’m missing that. and i’m missing being able to call him and talk.

we had a good night last night though. he didn’t get home until close to 9 p.m. because of a bad wreck on the interstate, and when he called he said all he wanted to do was to get home and see me. he held me for a while when he got in, and then we went out to get take-out for dinner and watch reno 911. he got me hooked on that show when we were just friends.

so now i’m counting down until friday. it’s going to be a great weekend. we have lots of stuff planned with both of our families for father’s day, which will be fun, but i just can’t wait to see joe.

never a dull moment

joe and i were relaxing on the couch watching sideways last night. i was leaning against him and he had his arms around me. i looked at him, and we started kissing. then CRAAAAAAAAAAACK. he smacked his forehead into my nose. i don’t think i’ve ever heard a crack that loud in my life. my entire nose, from the sides to the bridge, hurt. then my head began to hurt. joe thought he fractured it. he kept checking it for bruising and put a bag of frozen green beans on it. then he laughed at how absured i looked as i held the bag of green beans wrapped in a dish towel against my nose as i tried to watch the movie.

ah, never a dull moment with us.

why i almost broke up with joe

i woke up this morning and rolled over to tell joe about a dream i had just had.

“i just dreamt that we got engaged and…”

joe looks at me with compassionate eyes as he interrupts. “why do you keep having these nightmares?!”

“you think being engaged to me is a nightmare?!”

“i love you baby.”

“yeah, i used to love you.”

picking our song

joe and i are in the process of choosing our song. last weekend we chose “just like heaven” by the cure, but it’s more fast-paced, and i want a slower song that we can dance to (you know, for something like a wedding at some point in the future:) ) as well. i want “drowning” by the backstreet boys. before everyone starts laughing at me (what else is new) i think the lyrics are pretty romantic (or it could be just me).

don’t pretend you’re sorry
i know you’re not
you know you got the power
to make me weak inside
girl you leave me breathless
but it’s okay ’cause
you are my survival
now hear me say
i can’t imagine life
without your love
even forever don’t seem
like long enough

’cause everytime I breathe
i take you in
and my heart beats again
baby I can’t help it
you keep me
drowning in your love
everytime I try to rise above
i’m swept away by love
baby I can’t help it
you keep me
drowning in your love

maybe I’m a drifter
maybe not
’cause I have known the safety
of floating freely
in your arms
i don’t need another lifeline
it’s not for me
’cause only you can save me
oh can’t you see
i can’t imagine life
without your love
and even forever don’t seem
like long enough

’cause everytime I breathe
i take you in
and my heart beats again
baby I can’t help it
you keep me
drowning in your love
everytime I try to rise above
i’m swept away by love
baby I can’t help it
you keep me
drowning in your love

go on and pull me under
cover me with dreams, yeah
love me mouth to mouth now
you know I can’t resist
’cause you’re the air
that I breathe

’cause everytime I breathe
i take you in
and my heart beats again
baby I can’t help it
you keep me
drowning in your love
everytime I try to rise above
i’m swept away by love
and baby I can’t help it
you keep me
drowning your love

baby I can’t help it
keep me drowning
in your love
i keep drowning
in your love
baby I can’t help it
can’t help it no, no

’cause everytime I breathe
i take you in
and my heart beats again
baby I can’t help it
you keep me
drowning in your love
everytime I try to rise above
i’m swept away by love
baby I can’t help it
you keep me
drowning in your love

joe says it’s not his cup of tea. what can i say. maybe i’m a dork, but i’ve just always loved this song. guess it’s back to the drawing board. 🙁