Is This for Real?

Holy cow, guys…37 comments?! Thank you so much for your prayers and good wishes. I still can’t believe it’s real. I had to check the pee stick again this morning to make sure it hadn’t changed (it hadn’t).

But, it’s true. I got the official call from the doctor about half an hour ago. My beta level is 129, and while she says it’s not definitive, she says it looks like I’m having a singleton. While I am more happy than I can ever express, I am sad that one of the babies didn’t make it.

Last night was surreal. We were both ready to wait until this morning, but after work, I started getting really antsy and I just had this “feeling” that I should go ahead and test. So, Joe picked up the tests on his way home, and I once again poas. He made me wait TWO WHOLE MINUTES before looking at it, and when we saw it, we both turned away and then looked again. Joe said, “Does that say what I think it does??” and I replied with, “I don’t know…where’s the ‘not’??”


I stared at it all night, expecting it to switch back to “not pregnant”, but it didn’t. I still can’t believe it. Wow. According to an IVF Web site, I was exactly four weeks along yesterday — perfect timing to take my first belly picture!

belly shot -- 1 month

On Saturday, I go back for my second blood test to make sure my beta number doubles. Then, two weeks from tomorrow, I have my first ultrasound! That will also be the day I swap progesterone shots for suppositories, which I can’t decide is a good or bad thing. I’ll stay on progesterone and estrogen patches for the next six weeks. Hopefully by then this will all have sunken in!