the work week begins

i’m still hurting. *sigh* some of the pain is from the incisions, but i know a lot of it is from the gas they used to expand my stomach, and let me tell you that is quite painful. it hurts to move. i can’t sleep well because i can’t get comfortable.

joe was so wonderful over the weekend though. he was the one bright spot. he did such a good job taking care of me. he cooked for me. he brought me drinks. he gave me my medicines. he did the dishes. he washed laundry. he went grocery shopping for me since i still can’t drive. he took care of the cats. he was fantastic. i’m so lucky to have him. he’s going to make a great husband. 🙂

most women who have endometriosis get it numerous times. i do not want to go through this again. it’s not exactly my idea of fun. *sigh* and no working out for a few weeks. on the bright side…i move down to cartersville on friday (or begin to). i can’t wait.

pain

i made it through surgery, and yesterday wasn’t so bad. i was bombarded by hospital personnel in my room (the anesthesiologist, two nurses and my doctor) who explained things to me and stuck me with needles until it was time for them to lead me to the operating room. the nurses there were very friendly and they talked to me as they poured the “feel good” solution into iv. the last thing i remember is them asking me where i like to go on vacation.

the next thing i know i’m in the recovery room, hurting and freaking out because i couldn’t swallow. “oh, they had to numb your throat the put the breathing tube in,” the nurse told me.

i didn’t know i was going to have to have a breathing tube.

when i was wheeled back to my room my parents were still there, and one of my brothers had arrived. my other brother couldn’t come because he wasn’t feeling well. on the windowsill was a stuffed lion and a balloon that joe bought me. joe has been so good to me. he said he didn’t leave my room until he knew i was in recovery and was okay. then he and my brother, randy, went to the gift shop to find something for me. he’s such a sweet guy.

yesterday wasn’t too painful today is a completely different story. it hurts to move. it hurts to sit up. it hurts to stand. it hurts to walk. i had three incisions in my abdomen — one in my belly button and two below it on either side of my abdomen. people say, oh, three small incisions aren’t anything. they are when you use your abdomen for everything. think about it. you use it to sit up and to move around in bed, etc. i’ve already taken a percocet and still i’m in pain. combine that with my sore, scratchy throat that makes it very hard for me to talk, and i’m not a happy camper. i may not be able to drive monday. sigh. that means i’ll have to find a ride to my meetings. i just hope this doesn’t recur, like it does in most women. but my doctor made sure to tell my dad (MY DAD) that the birth control i’m on should cause it not to come back. way to go doc.

trash


seriously. where am i living? i am surrounded by animals. really. they’d have to be to throw their bags of trash on the side of the house and leave them. yes, it is an inconvenience to have our trash service taken away, but is it really that difficult to drive to the landfill and dump them? that’s what i’d be doing if i was staying here. these trashbags are going to attract animals, smell and just be a general health hazard. sigh. i’m still in awe at how lazy these people are. if they want to live like this, so be it i guess. i’m just glad i’m getting out now.

appointment with the knife

surgery is scheduled for friday at 9 a.m. i’d like to get out of it. not only am i scared of the surgery itself, but the prep the night before isn’t very attractive either. i’m thinking a life of pain and other things may not be so bad after all…hehe.

i’m going to be a nervous wreck on friday. i thought they would give me something to take thursday for my nerves, but apparantly that won’t happen until they try to calm me by talking to me before they wheel me in. that’s just not going to work. i already told joe we have to go out for my “last dinner” thursday night. he promises he won’t let anything happen to me. what scares me the most is the anesthesia and the thought of not coming out of it. i understand the anesthesiologists at the hospital i go to are “very good”, but that doesn’t really comfort me for some reason. i’m also scared that the surgery won’t fix anything. sigh. maybe i worry too much, or maybe these are common fears.

so think about me on friday. i will hopefully be back blogging on monday. and wish joe luck as he will be waiting on me friday and saturday while i’m in bed, drugged up (hopefully), in pain and not able to do much. 🙂

you know you’re in love when . . .

i’m sitting at my computer, listening to a few of my favorite romantic country songs, and all i’m doing is picturing me and joe. i’ve always loved “one boy, one girl” by colin raye, and i can see our first date, our wedding day and the birth of our children when i listen to it. it’s pretty incredible, probably because i’m realizing that reality isn’t too far off. it’s amazing when you find someone you know you’re meant to be with who does this to you, who you can’t picture your life without, and who you can’t wait to see every day. and now i have probably turned you all off of my blog with all this sappiness. hehe. 🙂

one boy, one girl
(mark alan springer/shaye smith)

he finally gave in to his friend’s girlfriend
when she said, “there’s someone you should meet”
at a crowded restaurant way cross town
he waited impatiently
when she walked in their eyes met
and they both stared
and right there and then everyone else disappeared but

one boy, one girl, two hearts beating wildly
to put it mildly it was love at first sight
he smiled, she smiled, and they knew right away
this was the day they’d waited for all their lives
and for a moment the whole world revolved
around one boy and one girl

in no time at all they were standing there
in the front of a little church
in front of their friends and family
repeating those sacred words
preacher said, “son kiss your bride”
and he raised her veil
like the night they met time just stood still

one boy, one girl, two hearts beating wildly
to put it mildly it was love at first sight
he smiled, she smiled, and they knew right away
this was the day they’d waited for all their lives
and for a moment the whole world revolved
around one boy and one girl

he was holding her hand when the doctor looked up and grinned
“congratulations, twins”

one boy, one girl, two hearts beating wildly
to put it mildly it was love at first sight
he smiled, she smiled, and they knew right away
this was the day they’d waited for all their lives
and for a moment the whole world revolved
around one boy and one girl

another of my favorites is “when i said i do,” which clint black sings with his wife. it’s so powerful. especially since a husband and wife sing it. it gives me goosebumps. this song is one we’ll having playing at our reception.

when i said i do (clint black)

these times are troubled and these times are good
and they’re always gonna be, they rise and they fall
we take ’em all the way that we should
together you and me forsaking them all
deep in the night and by the light of day
it always looks the same, true love always does
and here by your side, or a million miles away
nothin’s ever gonna change the way that i feel,
the way it is, is the way that it was

when i said i do, i meant that i will ’til the end of all time
be faithful and true, devoted to you
that’s what i had in mind when i said i do

well this old world keeps changin’, and the world stays the same
for all who came before, and it goes hand and hand
only you and i can undo all that we became
that makes us so much more, than a woman and a man
and after everything that comes and goes around
has only passed us by, here alone in our dreams
i know there’s a lonely heart in every lost and found
but forever you and i will be the ones
who found out what forever means

when i said i do, i meant that i will ’til the end of all time
be faithful and true, devoted to you
that’s what i had in mind when i said i do
truer than true, you know that I’ll always be there for you
that’s what i had in mind, that’s what i had in mind,
when i said i do

rollercoaster of emotions

it’s been a rollercoaster of a week. lows then highs then lows.

joe’s grandmother died wednesday morning. his parents called him tuesday night while he was here and told us she was in the hospital. we asked if we should come down to see her, but they said she’d have a few more days. at 3 a.m. joe’s mom called and told us she was dying. we dressed quickly and headed out, but we got held up getting gas and then finding a gas station with a working air pump.

at 4 a.m., while we were still on our way to atlanta, his grandmother passed away. i was so sad. i wanted joe to see her one last time, but he didn’t get to. it broke my heart.

we spent wednesday morning with his family, and on our way back home i got the call saying i had gotten the radio job. we were back on a high for a little bit.

that afternoon, we went to my doctor appointment and found out i’m having surgery next friday. sigh. another low.

yesterday was the funeral. it was a very nice service, but seeing joe’s dad crying broke my heart again. i hate seeing him like that because i like his family so much. what really touched me though was that about 30 people showed up, most of them people who either work or have worked with joe’s dad. that really spoke to me. it says a lot about what kind of a person joe’s dad is that so many people would show up to support him and comfort him and his family.

after the service we had lunch and hung out at joe’s sister’s fiance’s parents’ house (how’s that for a mouthful?!). rachel (joe’s sister), joe’s parents and tommy (a cousin from new york) went out and we met up with them at this very nice outdoor mall. we had a fun afternoon shopping. rachel and i browsed through banana republic and chatted. it was a lot of fun. we found an arch that we both liked at one store, and rachel said we could both use it for our weddings. hehe.

so now i’m back home getting ready to go to my shift at my kiwanis club’s pancake day while joe is at training for his club. what a fun service-oriented morning for us! one of the biggest perks about moving to cartersville is that i will get to transfer to his club. i love the people in it. they’re so great. and the like me more than joe. 🙂 hehe. funny story and then i will end this long post…joe was telling some of the women in his club a few months ago that we were talking about getting married. linda, the immediate past president, asked if they could be the flower girls. without missing a beat, joe says, “you can be the flower women.” needless to say, that didn’t go over too well at first. hehe. now every time i talk to linda she asks if she’s going to be a “flower woman” in our wedding. i told joe since linda helped me find this job down there that she will be our official flower woman. hehe.

and now i’m off to serve pancakes or pick up trash or whatever it is i’m assigned to do this morning. woo hoo.