The Final Beta

My number today was 358, which is more than double my first beta. My IVF coordinator is very happy with that, and so now we are done with blood draws. Hooray. I go back on April 10 for my first u/s, during which they’ll see where the baby implanted (and we’re praying it’s not ectopic), how big it is and how many there are, though from my numbers I’m guessing there’s probably only one.

I don’t know how often ectopic pregnancies occur from IVF, but I know it will be weighing on my mind over the next two weeks, especially since I had my hips elevated after my transfer. I’m not going to stress or worry, but it’ll be on my mind until I know that everything is ok.

Old Mom

Today, I was looking around the site where I got my pregnancy ticker, and I noticed that you can find members who share your due date. I checked December 1 and found two members listed. They’re both 17. Boy, do I feel old.

Cousins and Celebrations

How about a *non* pregnancy-related post! We had the first of my three birthday celebrations last weekend with my family. My two cousins on my dad’s side and their parents were out here visiting, and it was so much fun getting to see them again. I saw Ray about four years ago when he came out with his dad, but I don’t think I’ve seen Jacki since I last went out to California back in high school. It’s crazy how rarely we all get to see each other, but that’s what happens when you live on opposite sides of the country. It was fun meeting Jacki’s husband, Brandon, too. He’s really nice, and he and Joe got along really well. Now that Jacki and Brandon live out on the east coast, though, maybe we’ll get to see them more.

family

cousins

My grandpa came home from rehab for the day, which was nice. It was good to see him again. Joe and I haven’t been able to get up to Chattanooga as much lately, so it’s been a while It was especially nice because we celebrated Jacki and Brandon’s anniversary and my 29th birthday. I got some gift cards and a paper cutter with various blades, which I’m excited about using. I have some neat ideas for cards. And, Randy and my mom made a *delicious* chocolate cake. Yum.

birthday

birthday

I’m not a big fan of turning 29 (it *is* one year away from 30!), but I do love having three celebrations!

Is This for Real?

Holy cow, guys…37 comments?! Thank you so much for your prayers and good wishes. I still can’t believe it’s real. I had to check the pee stick again this morning to make sure it hadn’t changed (it hadn’t).

But, it’s true. I got the official call from the doctor about half an hour ago. My beta level is 129, and while she says it’s not definitive, she says it looks like I’m having a singleton. While I am more happy than I can ever express, I am sad that one of the babies didn’t make it.

Last night was surreal. We were both ready to wait until this morning, but after work, I started getting really antsy and I just had this “feeling” that I should go ahead and test. So, Joe picked up the tests on his way home, and I once again poas. He made me wait TWO WHOLE MINUTES before looking at it, and when we saw it, we both turned away and then looked again. Joe said, “Does that say what I think it does??” and I replied with, “I don’t know…where’s the ‘not’??”

hpt

I stared at it all night, expecting it to switch back to “not pregnant”, but it didn’t. I still can’t believe it. Wow. According to an IVF Web site, I was exactly four weeks along yesterday — perfect timing to take my first belly picture!

belly shot -- 1 month

On Saturday, I go back for my second blood test to make sure my beta number doubles. Then, two weeks from tomorrow, I have my first ultrasound! That will also be the day I swap progesterone shots for suppositories, which I can’t decide is a good or bad thing. I’ll stay on progesterone and estrogen patches for the next six weeks. Hopefully by then this will all have sunken in!

I Cheated

hpt

11dp3dt — One Day to Go

My beta is tomorrow. Holy cow, am I scared. I think that’s mainly because I can’t wrap my mind around the idea of being pregnant. I’ve never been pregnant. I’ve never seen a positive pregnancy test. That’s how I’ve kept myself from doing a hpt. All I see in my mind are the negatives, and I can’t bear to see that one, bold line again.

Every time I get scared, I say a prayer and think about the implantation bleeding I had, and that makes me feel better for a little bit. And even though I think I am, I’m still scared to death. I keep thinking like tomorrow’s beta is like a test in school — all I need is a 50! It’s too bad it doesn’t work like that.

I don’t really “feel” pregnant, but then again, I don’t know what I’m supposed to feel like right now. My little babies are still tiny, so I doubt I’d been feeling much. What I have noticed is a bit of cramping two days ago, which my mom thinks is my uterus changing, and how my abdomen cramps a little when I hunch forward at my desk at work. I doubt it means anything, and it’s probably a coincidence, but it’s just something I’ve noticed.

So, please, keep those prayers and good thoughts coming. Pray for me to have peace, because I really need that today.