Ultrasound … Ultranew

On Saturday, we tried out the fetal doppler my mom borrowed from the nursing school at my alma mater, just one of the benefits of her working as a clinical instructor. 🙂 I was super excited to possibly hear the heartbeat, so as soon as my brother got home from church we pulled out the doppler to try it out.

When we opened the box, we pulled out the recorded instructions.

doppler 10 week

Remember those? Yeah, they’re called cassette tapes. That’s what the instructions were on. Then, we pulled out the booklet — copyright 1977. This doppler was the exact same kind that they probably used on my mom when she was pregnant with me! Awesome!

We tried really hard to find the heartbeat, but we weren’t able too. I wasn’t too surprised because my OB’s nurse warned me it was really early and we likely wouldn’t be able to hear it. We also might not have used the probe low enough. Who knows.

doppler 10 week

doppler 10 week

Surprisingly, I didn’t freak out. I was bummed, of course, but I didn’t jump to the conclusion that something was wrong with my baby. Big steps! My mom’s going to borrow the doppler and a fetalscope on Memorial Day weekend, and we should be able to hear the heartbeat with the doppler by then because I’ll be 12 weeks.

I am definitely seeing changes in my body, though. My stomach is much more round now, almost completely round in fact. There’s just a slight indentation where my belly button is. I still look more chunky than pregnant, but I’m starting to feel a little better about that.

Yesterday, we spent time with Joe’s parents and then went shopping. My mil bought me two maternity tops for the fall, which was fun to do on Mother’s Day. They’re super cute. I wish I could wear them now!

Mother’s Day

Last year was the worst Mother’s Day I can remember. We had been trying to conceive for just more than a year, and instead of becoming pregnant and celebrating with my child, I watched as my sister-in-law celebrated with Harrison. Don’t get me wrong, I love her and Harry to death, and I was happy for her, but it was hard. I had to leave the table and go in the other room when tears threatened to spill out of my eyes. My dad, knowing how hard it was for me, gave me a hug, and told me he loved me and that it would be my turn soon.

And, he was right. This year, I finally got to be part of the Mother’s Day celebrations, not as a mom, yet, but as a mom-to-be. I was the center of attention yesterday as everyone wanted me to open my cards and presents before my mom and grandma did. I got cards from everyone, and my parents got me “Today’s Moms: Essentials for Surviving Baby’s First Year”.

today's mom

I love books like this, and this one is written by two producers of the “Today Show”, which is awesome because that’s my favorite morning show. I can’t wait to get into this book.

This morning, Joe woke me up to give me two cards — one from the cats, and one from him and Smudge — and a stuffed lion that plays “Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star” when you push its stomach. It’s adorable, and I know Smudge will love it. He also took me out to breakfast at IHOP. Yum!

This afternoon, we’re heading to Joe’s parents to celebrate with them. I’m looking forward to next year when Smudge will be here to celebrate with us.

Happy Mother’s Day to all you moms, moms-to-be and moms with angel babies! I hope you all have a nice, relaxing day.

Worry Wart

In case you haven’t noticed, I worry. A lot. I realized today that I’ve been worrying so much I haven’t been able to enjoy this pregnancy. There’s not as much to enjoy during the first trimester as there are during the others, but just being pregnant is enough. I realized today that I still can’t wrap my mind around the fact that I’m pregnant and that this happens to us, and I think that’s why I worry. I always expect the negative to happen. I can’t fathom the fact that that’s not how it’s going to work this time.

I received a pair of maternity pants I had ordered today, and I was so excited to try them on. However, they didn’t fit *and* they had a tapered leg, which I hate. I really don’t understand how the large was so uncomfortable when my other pants are the same size and quite comfy. I guess it just depends on the size and style, as with other types of clothing.

I’ll have more later on my 10th week along with a picture (hopefully!). I’m warning you right now though — I don’t look pregnant, just super fat.

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Seriously, does it get any cuter than this?? Callie constantly cracks me up with her awesome personality. She’s such a cutie. I told Joe that I really don’t know how the baby will even come close to Callie’s cuteness. Of course, I know it will, but it’ll be tough. 🙂

Great Day

Wow, yesterday was such a great day. For the first time, I really *felt* pregnant. I ended up wearing my one pair of maternity pants because, frankly, they were the only comfortable pair I have, and right now, comfort is all I care about. With those and an empire-waisted shirt, I really looked pregnant. I looked down all day and saw my belly sticking out. It was so awesome.

So yes, I’ve been wearing maternity pants for the last two days. My regular pants just put too much pressure on my abdomen. Today after work, Joe and I went to Kohls to see if I could find any other pants (since I only have one pair). I found two cute pairs of capris, and I found a couple shirts. One is a t-shirt that says “Baby Love”, and when I tried it on, I just looked fat in it, mainly because my love handles were so pronounced and because you can still see the indentation around my belly button. My belly isn’t smooth yet. But, as I reflect on it, I didn’t start off with a flat stomach. I started out with quite a bit of stomach pooch, so I really can’t be too bummed right now. Sure, it’s more pronounced now, but it won’t be long before I really start looking pregnant.

Last night, I was feeling a little bummed because I’ve seen bloggers behind me in pregnancy having heard their babies heartbeats, and I have yet to hear mine. I’ve been really wanting to hear it, and now that I’m halfway through the four weeks between my OB appointments, I’m really wanting to hear it or see it. It’s hard to get used to monthly visits. Joe put his ear to my belly tonight and said he heard something really rapid. My brother, who is a nurse, says the baby’s heartbeat should be able to be heard without amplification just like mine can, so we like to think that Joe did hear it. Maybe our little baby knew how much we wanted to hear it and was helping us out.