Dream a Little Dream

Not only has Smudge been on my mind constantly, but she’s started to infiltrate my dreams.

Last night, I had a dream that my in-laws had Smudge for a couple nights, and when they brought her back, she gave me a big smile and was oh so cute. And, she was a GIRL! (I will spare you from the part of my dream leading up to this because it was just crazy weird.)

The night before, I dreamt that I was feeling the baby kicking me. It seemed so real that when I woke up I put my hand on my belly only to feel nothing. I know it’s still pretty early for that but, again, the dream seemed so real.

I wonder what Smudge will have me dreaming about tonight.

Timing

When we started trying to conceive in 2007, I figured it would happen easily. I never thought it would take us two years and an IVF to get pregnant. This definitely wasn’t *my* timing, but it was God’s timing, and I’m starting to realize that as this pregnancy progresses.

I’m definitely more ready for this baby financially and emotionally. I’m a money saving machine (except for when repairs on our house our needed, unfortunately), and I’ve definitely toned down my attitude. I don’t fly off the handle as much as I did before.

And most recently, one of our very good friends decided to take early retirement from work and has asked if she can watch our baby while we’re at work. What an amazing blessing that definitely would not have been an option two years ago. I’ve never been a fan of day care centers. My brothers and I always were watched by a grandmotherly-type woman who lived in our neighborhood and later by teenage babysitters, and that’s what I wanted for our baby. I have a pretty good schedule at work, and I don’t go in until mid-afternoon on the days I have late meetings, so this will give me flexibility to spend the morning with the baby. It also will give Joe time after work to go running without having to worry about being back by a certain time to pick up the baby. Plus, I love that she’ll be able to take Smudge to the park or the library or the local play place during the day. I’m so excited I can’t stand it. I feel so much more comfortable now about going back to work after maternity leave knowing that someone I know and trust is taking care of Smudgie.

Waiting two years to have a baby wasn’t our plan, but it’s amazing for me to see how things are falling into place now.