- i love candles. i used to burn them all the time, even at my desk at work. i haven't in a while, but i still buy them and have them all over my house. even without burning them they just make my house smell so much better. my favorites right now are from the white barn candle company. i also love the chips you can buy and burn with a tea candle in a burner. i think they have a much stronger smell than regular candles.
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celebrating mothers

i was pretty bummed today. we went to my parents’ to celebrate mother’s day, and it was hard being the only woman at the table without cards and presents, especially considering how long we’ve been trying to get pregnant. it really bummed me out. my parents were really supportive and were as encouraging as always, but it still sucked.

the bright spot today was getting to see my big sister graduate from the university of north carolina at wilmington. they had the commencement ceremony online, and started handing out diplomas shortly after it started. we stopped eating and went into my grandparents’ study to watch but noticed that they would announce names but no one would walk across the stage. it turns out they had two lines of graduates and they alternated, but luckily when lisa’s name was called the camera was on her. she looked so beautiful and so happy, and i am so, so proud of her. she used her maiden name as her middle name, which was really neat too. i thought my dad was going to cry watching her get her diploma. i know it makes him feel good, and i’m really glad that we were able to see it.

May 10, 2008 | filed under family, holidays, life | leave a comment

the children that keep coming

an arkansas woman is pregnant with her 18th child. yes, she has 17 children, the youngest of which is 9 months, and now is pregnant with number 18. much of that i think comes from the beliefs of their quiverful religion, but i still can’t wrap my mind around 18 kids. she has been pregnant for 11 years. i think nine months sounds like a long time, and i can’t imagine spending 11 years of my life pregnant. they have nine vehicles and a 21-passenger bus. a friend and i who discussed this story yesterday over lunch figured the family must have a bus to drive 17 children plus themselves around.

joe and i decided a while ago that we want to have three or four children. lately, i’ve been leaning toward three, even though i don’t like the idea of having an odd number. but 18? i just keep thinking about that in awe. i haven’t been through labor yet, but even i know i don’t want to do that 18 times!

what do you all think about the idea of having 18 kids? how many kids did you/do you want?

May 10, 2008 | filed under news | 5 comments

private post

there is a private post up.

May 9, 2008 | filed under general | leave a comment

a-ok

i am back. my tubes are fine. i’m, well, sort of fine. i should have taken the valium as soon as i woke up this morning, because it really didn’t kick in until right before i went into the exam room. i was still pretty nervous, but i tried to relax. the tech told me i would feel pressure, and i can handle pressure, but it wasn’t pressure. it was full on pain. the exam only lasted about 5-10 minutes, but when they put the catheter in and started the exam, i thought i was going to cry. man. anyway. so there are no blockages. yay. now i’m totally loopy and out of it, and i’m still hurting a lot. they said i should expect that for the rest of the day. hoo-frickin-ray. but at least there’s not something seriously wrong with me for now. hopefully when we go back to the doctor in three weeks he’ll start me on clomid. thanks for all your prayers and good thoughts!

May 8, 2008 | filed under health and fitness, life, trying to conceive (ttc) | 12 comments

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