on friday i will find out if i have to have surgery. i always freak out about the anesthesia, so i am very, very nervous. my doctor thinks i have endometriosis, which is where the tissue in the uterus grows outside the uterus. the weird thing is, i’ve read that most women with endo have normal immune systems. mine is anything but normal since i have rheumatoid arthritis and my immune system attacks itself.

the fun thing is that my doctor says in order to determine if i have endo i have to have the laparoscopic surgery. basically, he says they’re going to make two incisions and fill me up with gas so they can see what’s going on, burn off the scar tissue, etc.

so i’ll be on edge for a few more days now. at least i’ll know one way or the other. that’ll take away a little bit of the stress. i think. please pray for me! i need it!