I have been *so* excited today. I’m triggering tonight, and my retrieval is Wednesday. What’s not to be excited about?

I’ll tell you what. When my IVF coordinator called me with an update on today’s lab work, she said my estrogen actually *dropped*. They wanted it to be around 2,000, and it is at 1,035. That’s down from 1,559 yesterday.

Needless to say, I’m freaking out. She said that it could be that my large follicles (I have follicles between 15-22 mm) are telling my smaller follicles to shut down. I don’t want to even think about any other reasons.

I’m sad, and I’m stressed. I am still *very* happy that I have at least 20 follicles for retrieval. I just hope and pray that the lower estrogen level doesn’t mean that their quality is bad. I did, however, have to drive back to Atlanta this afternoon to pick up another 150 iu of Follistim, and I’m supposed to take that and what I have left in my two partial cartridges this afternoon. That was fantastic news since she called about an hour before I had to be at work and couldn’t understand why I couldn’t just drop everything and drive the 40 minutes (each way) back into the city. It’s because I have a job so I can make money so I can pay *you*!

As you can tell, I’m really wound up. I won’t know anything about my eggs until Thursday. That seems like so far away. Please continue lifting me and Joe up in your thoughts and prayers. I know I’m feeling really down right now.