My beta is tomorrow. Holy cow, am I scared. I think that’s mainly because I can’t wrap my mind around the idea of being pregnant. I’ve never been pregnant. I’ve never seen a positive pregnancy test. That’s how I’ve kept myself from doing a hpt. All I see in my mind are the negatives, and I can’t bear to see that one, bold line again.
Every time I get scared, I say a prayer and think about the implantation bleeding I had, and that makes me feel better for a little bit. And even though I think I am, I’m still scared to death. I keep thinking like tomorrow’s beta is like a test in school — all I need is a 50! It’s too bad it doesn’t work like that.
I don’t really “feel” pregnant, but then again, I don’t know what I’m supposed to feel like right now. My little babies are still tiny, so I doubt I’d been feeling much. What I have noticed is a bit of cramping two days ago, which my mom thinks is my uterus changing, and how my abdomen cramps a little when I hunch forward at my desk at work. I doubt it means anything, and it’s probably a coincidence, but it’s just something I’ve noticed.
So, please, keep those prayers and good thoughts coming. Pray for me to have peace, because I really need that today.
What? The test is tomorrow? I didn’t study. At all. Oh my gosh, can I pleeeeeeeeeeeeease see your notes? Pleeeeeeeease? I left mine at home.
I just can’t believe that tomorrow is almost here. You’re the first person who I thought of when I woke up this morning! 🙂 So if it’s positive, are you going to announce it here in your blog? (Stupid question, maybe, but I’m just wondering whether you’re going to blog about it.) Praying for you … holding good thoughts … it really does seem to me like you’re pregnant, but I’m not a doctor.
lisanne – if it’s positive, i will blog about it. it might be tomorrow, but it might not be. i know joe and i are going to want to tell our families and just enjoy it.
praying for you!!
xox
good luck with your beta tomorrow!!!
ICLW
I’ve been praying for your strength (and joy!) all week. I will add peace. Hope this birthday is filled with a tremendous gift.
I was totally thinking about you last night as I was trying to fall asleep. Prayers sent!!
Thinking about you today! How exciting.
Praying for peace, calmness & strength as tomorrow nears.
I am so thinking of you! I am sending you peaceful thoughts and cannot wait to hear how it goes. I think those cramps are a good sign…
Thanks for stopping by my blog during my 2WW too! I am DYING with the waiting!
Hugs,
Carrie
Lots of crossed fingers and few crossed toes here in Wisconsin!
Good luck tomorrow!! Hope you will have an excellent beta!
I have been praying for you so much lately. You’ve been on my mind so much… I even went to bed last night praying for you. I had cramping when I was pregnant too… it was my first sign (after slight implantation bleeding)! xoxo
thanks!