julius “squeaks” schulman, nov. 2002-july 2008

it’s going to be hard to get used to life without julius. i know i’ll instinctively reach up at night to see if he’s sleeping on my head or call him into the bathroom when i shower for security. and eating dinner just won’t be the same without him swatting at joe’s hand and trying to steal a bite.



but i know he’s much better off now. it was tough seeing him this afternoon. he was in bad shape. in fact, the doctor came in and told us he really hadn’t thought julius would make it through the afternoon. he screamed as he was brought in, and we quickly realized we wouldn’t be able to hold him. touching his belly was just too painful for him. his breathing also was much more labored. we took his three favorite foods — a hamburger, popcorn and cat treats — but he was too sick to eat. i’m just so glad that he held on until we arrived. i like to think that he did that because he wanted us to be able to say goodbye to him. and i’m glad that the last thing he saw was my face.


the doctor said the lymphocarcinoma julius had is a cancer that spreads very quickly. he wasn’t surprised that just a few months ago, julius seemed to be in perfect health. i’m just so surprised at how fast he deteriorated. in just days he went from an active, snuggly cat to one who was too sick to come out from under the coffee table. his blood and lymphocite count tests weren’t good either, another indication of how sick he was. normal blood count ranges are 40-50; julius’ was 9. the range for the lymphocite count is 0.4-6; julius’ was 70,000. the doctor said he’d never seen a cat with a count that high. we buried him tonight with several of his most favorite toys. i think he would have liked that.

julius' toys

i’m also glad that this experience was so different than when we put sasha to sleep last year. the vet today was *so* nice compared to the one who put sasha to sleep. he seemed to get choked up when he was giving us his condolences. that was really nice.

when i got julius, my landlords did not want me to have a pet. my parents found julius abandoned on their road and, after he ran right up to them and jumped in their car, they brought him to my apartment. my landlords were wary at first, but they soon fell head over heels in love with julius. i’d look outside in the afternoons and see them playing with him. when i moved, they didn’t want him to leave. he was just such an endearing cat.


i can’t express how much we will miss our sweet squeaks mcgee. he got that nickname from the fact that instead of meowing he squeaked. it was the cutest thing ever. he was with me for 5 1/2 years through numerous failed relationships, through the death of his brother, caesar and through the combining of our home with joe’s. i will miss him cuddling with me while i watch tv. i’ll miss him sitting by the bathtub while i shower, poking his little head through the shower curtain and squeaking if i’m in there too long. i’ll miss him running to the food bowl every time joe stands up. i’ll miss his running outside when we open the back door and then making an immediate u-turn and hightailing it right back inside. i’m just going to miss him more than anything. it’s going to take a long, long time for this pain to go away.


julius, you were my first baby, the first pet i had on my own. i just can’t imagine life without you. it’s going to be rough for a long, long time. i just hope you knew how much your dad, brothers and i loved you and will miss you. life just won’t be the same without our squeaks. we love you buddy.

julius and teddy

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Hi! I’m a wife to a wonderful husband, mom to a beautiful and active (to put it lightly) kiddo, and fur-mom to 3 crazy cats. I’m a former journalist. I quit my full time job two years ago. Now, I am a freelance writer and a virtual assistant for several bloggers!


  1. Joe says:

    I miss you, Julius. You were the best.

  2. Connie says:

    I’m in tears again. I *have not* been able to get you guys off my mind *all* evening! This was such a sweet tribute to your sweet Julius. Having had to have our first cat child put to sleep & then losing a couple more cat children, I completely relate to your loss. I *know* that it’s going to be a tough time but just remember all the special times you & Joe had with him & treasure all the pictures you have of him forever. These pics that you posted of sweet Julius are so precious & cute & it’s obvious in these pics that he *knew* how much he was loved so hopefully that brings you some comfort. You all will be in my thoughts & prayers. (((BIG HUGS)))

  3. stacey says:

    Sending prayers your way – I can’t imagine how hard this is for you guys. Julius was a sweetheart.

  4. Now I’m sitting here, about to go to work, crying my eyes out! That was so beautiful and so sweet, Cady. Once again, I am so, so sorry for your loss. What a wonderful little squeaker!!

  5. jamie says:

    oh, i’m so sorry, cady! what sweet memories of a friend, though.

  6. Felicia says:

    My condolences on your loss. Those kinds of pets forever stay in your heart.

  7. nanette says:

    Aaaaaah, I had to scroll through the last part of the post as I was starting to get all weepy on your behalf. 🙁

    I’m quite sorry for your loss.

  8. alyndabear says:

    Oh Cady, I am so so sorry about Julius – I’m tearing up for you guys, because I know exactly how heartbreaking this is.

    Big hugs to all. xo

  9. Jessica says:

    Cady & Joe,
    I am so so sorry to hear about your sweet Julius. I cried reading this entry. I will be thinking about you guys and praying for you. I am so incredibly sorry for your loss.

  10. janet says:

    I know I’m late here but just wanted to say I’m very sorry. He looks like a real sweetie pie.

  11. 9grandkids says:

    Cady, hadn’t read about Julius before. I am turly sorry to hear his life was cut short. From what I read on your blog though, you have turned the corner. Savor the memories and move on. That’s what you have to do.

    Have had several cats and happy that the last one lived to a ripe age and died with a smile on his face. “Life of Riley” (radio show before you were born — ask grandparents about it).

    But there is a wonderful life lesson from our pets. Pet genes don’t give them the years we get, but they live long enough for us to learn about caring for others and honoring life. More, when they go, while we are yet young, they teach us about parting and grief. As we mature, we get to experience much of that and our loving pets have served us well teaching us how to deal with our sadness and more, how to help others through it.
    So hats off to your precious Julius. And, while you are at thinking of a new friend, toast one to Julius and celebrate the joy he gave and what he taught.


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