we had a pretty good appointment with our rs today. he us today that i don’t have pcos. yay. that’s good. it’s also bad because he doesn’t know why my cycles are irregular. he said it could be from one of the medicines i’m on, but there’s really no way to be sure. i’d just like to have a reason.

he’s putting me on clomid pending my meeting with a maternal fetal medicine specialist who will be able to tell me if the medicines i’m taking for my arthritis will interact with the clomid. so, theoretically, next month i will start the clomid to regulate my cycles and then take ovidrol, which will make me ovulate. that takes the guesswork out of figuring out when ovulation occurs because you ovulate 36 hours after the injection. i have to go to a class next week on how to inject myself which i think is a waste of time. here’s how that conversation went:

doctor: you need to go to our class to learn how to inject yourself.
me: what if i already know how to do that? i give myself shots every week for my arthritis.
doctor: have you used the ones you needed to mix or the prefilled syringes?
me: both.
doctor: what about the stick pens?
me: used those too.
joe: she could teach the class. she’s such a junkie.
doctor: yeah, well, i guess so.

still couldn’t get out of it. oh well. our doctor also had to warn us about the risk of multiples with fertility drugs. he had the bright idea to say, “you could come in for your 12 day ultrasound and have five follicles.”

that freaked joe out. that could mean five babies. that would be a lot at one time. but, i did some reading up on clomid and really, the likelihood of multiples is pretty low. there’s a 10-12 percent chance of twins and less than a 1 percent chance of three or more babies. personally, i would love to have twins. i come from a family of twins. my grandpa’s a twin, my mom’s a twin and my brothers are twins. i’ve always wanted twins. we had a long talk about everything this afternoon, and now that the initial scare has worn off we’re ok with the risk now. i think joe would rather have one at a time, but he says as long as they’re healthy then however many we have is fine.

we were also told we could bypass everything else and go directly to ivf, which our doctor said a lot of people choose to do since most have been trying for more than a year. there’s a much higher success rate (60-70 percent compared to 20 percent with clomid), but we don’t want to jump that far ahead right now. it’s a *lot* more expensive, and we’d really like to get pregnant the natural way if possible. our doctor said we should be pregnant within three months. otherwise, the chances of the clomid working decrease and we’ll have to go another route. just thinking that i could be pregnant in the next three months is scary. it’s exciting, but just such a scary thought!