Last night, after prayers pleading for peace and comfort throughout this process, I had a dream in which I got my bfp. I woke up and thought, maybe that’s God’s way of giving me peace.

Then, I remembered that right after the “pregnant” popped up on the screen, it suddenly said “not pregnant” below. So, of course, that made me think he was telling me it’s still up in the air. Maybe I’m just thinking way too much about this.

A lot of IVF bloggers I’m following are starting to get their bfp’s. I’m really happy for them, and it makes me hopeful, but at the same time I get more nervous. I guess I think that it has to not work for someone, and since everyone else is getting their positives, I may not get mine. Please tell me I’m not alone in thinking that.

We are 15 days away from the transfer, which is crazy because last week we were four weeks away. I can’t believe we’re going to have it done sooner, but I’m super excited.