I am officially starting to freak out. I pray for peace, and for a while I am fine, thinking happily about my implantation bleeding and the ridiculous exhaustion I’ve been having lately.

Then, I start to freak out again. Joe said today would be the worst, and it really is. Tomorrow won’t be as bad because we’ll only be a day away from knowing. If I can just make it through today without going crazy…

Deep down I feel like I’m pregnant, but as I said yesterday, I’m starting to second guess everything, even the implantation bleeding. I’m going to be heartbroken if it didn’t work, and I’m letting you know now, I won’t be blogging for a while if that’s the case.

Please, do me a favor and don’t leave any comments or send me emails asking me if it worked. I know you all mean well, but if it doesn’t, I don’t think I’ll be able to handle being barraged by questions.